Diaries of a schizo ®

February 12, 2004

My chapter starts here...

http://www.Tabulas.com/~razorsharp Razorsharp Be afraid. Be very afraid.

.As you explore the pages of this diary you will encounter some entries of sorts: of love, of lust, and some, most disturbing. Dialogues, recollections, confessions. I am not a writer, i merely serve as a medium. Some stories are not mine, but that does not make them any less real, or that they did not exist. I do not endorse a way of life. I simply depict one. For there can be no love without indifference; no redemption without sin. This is me, devoid of pretensions. ...

"Whoever speaks to me in the right voice, Him or Her I shall follow, as the water follows the moon, silently..." - Walt Whitman

Posted by RazorSharp on February 12, 2004 at 08:25 AM as a stickied post | flaccid

February 26, 2006

RazorSharp

I HAVE A NEW BABY!!!

..and my old baby has a new sister! =)

She's big, she's black, and she's HOT!! She's a 1998 Limited Edition All-power Automatic Mitsubishi Galant!

I just got her last friday. My old car is also a mitsubishi galant. A two-door galant that accompanied me all through out my college years. she's also fast and pretty, with her polished red body and chrome accents... but she's getting a bit old for speed. Soon she will have to retire, but that's another story..

meanwhile, both of them will be sharing the garrage in harmony. I will have to make sure that there will be no sibling rivalry.

Posted by RazorSharp on February 26, 2006 at 10:27 PM | 3 aroused

January 31, 2006

RazorSharp

Moral Clarity

Dear Senator Santorum:

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your speeches on the Senate floor in support of a Constitutional amendment against "gay" marriage. I am now trying to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly defines it is an abomination. End of debate.

I do need some advice from you, however, regarding other elements of God's Laws and how to follow them.

Leviticus 25:44 states that I may possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her? Would Jesus mind if I list her on eBay?

I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness (Lev.15: 19-24). The problem is how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense. How do you steer clear of unclean women?

When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord(Lev.1:9). The problem is city zoning doesn't allow for such burnings during windy days. Should I start a petition?

I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself, or should I ask the police to do it?

A friend of mine feels that even though eating fried oysters is an abomination (Lev. 11:10). It is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this? Are there 'degrees' of abomination?

Lev. 21:20s tates that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle-room here? Any thoughts on Lasik surgery?

Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev. 19:27. How should they die?

I know from Lev.11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev.19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread, usually a smart cotton/polyester blend. He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? Lev.24:10-16. Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair, like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

I know you have studied these things extensively and thus enjoy considerable expertise in such matters, so I am confident you can help.

Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging.

Currently feeling: aggravated

Posted by RazorSharp on January 31, 2006 at 01:01 AM | 6 aroused

January 16, 2006

Page 3

RazorSharp

5:30 pm, Mr. Choi Kitchen, Robinson’s Pioneer

On my own. Waiting for Chay to finish his interview at Globe.

My text to Chay:

M havng Hakaw nd Beef Brisket. LIFE S GOOD! =)

No reply. Maybe he’s already being interviewed.

Suddenly, an old familiar feeling overwhelmed me...

I want to cover myself with paint and throw myself in abandon on a big white canvas.

I would like to see what interesting mix of shapes and colors my body could make.

I don’t want to have to worry about time, work, money, bills, and all the other monsters that are taking so much space in my closet, or under my bed.

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

Sequel:

Eh di yun na nga… Hinatid ako ni chay kahapon pauwi galling sa Robinson’s Pioneer. Pagbaba ko ng kotse ay biglang parang may napansin akong kakaiba pero hindi ko matumpok kung ano. Lumakad pa ako papalapit ng gate. Napansin kong nakabukas ang lamp post na pinagawa ng tatay ko (oo, may lamp post na pinagawa ang aking daddy. Dahil sobrang incompetent ng congressman naming si Dante De Guzman, nagpagawa nga ng street lights, wala namang linya ng kuryente, would you believe??! SYET! haaay..anyway..). Bigla kong naisip “Di naman binubuksan yung ilaw pag 6 PM pa lang ha, bakit kaya ngayon eh…” ng biglang, “Ay syet, wait! Alam ko na kung ano ang kakaiba! Walang kahit na isa sa mahigit singkwentang mga batang naglalaro sa harap ng bahay namin araw-araw! "

Sa sobrang tuwa ko napasandal ako sa posteng pinagawa ng tatay ko. Naisip ko, “Syet! Can this be it?! Is it true? Can it be?”. Napaisip ako ng malakas, “Am I in NARNIAland?!” (OO, may LAND! Eh bakit ba) Naexcite ako. Sana dumaan yung evil Witch para mahiram ko yung fur coat nyang super fabulous!

Tiningnan ko ang relo ko. “Ay, 11PM na pala. Kaya naman pala walang mga impoverished kids sa kalye, tulog na sila! Leche!”

Then napaisip ako ulit. “TANGNA! ANG BORED KO! TUMATAKBO NANAMAN UTAK KO.” Then pumasok na ko ng gate…

.....

Currently feeling: blah

Posted by RazorSharp on January 16, 2006 at 08:54 PM | 2 aroused

January 9, 2006

Page 2.

RazorSharp

Magiisang taon na rin since huli akong nagsulat. Mukhang marami nang nagbago…
The year that just passed has been a busy year for me, and a memorable one at that. Looking back, I can proudly say that 2005 was the turning point of my life. Naging mabuti saakin ang taong ito. I have a great new job, i have established my own business, and to even top the icing on the cake with a cherry (or a batman figurine, whichever you prefer) - i have built stronger foundations in both life and love.

I should be happy. I know.

Down side?
This year, I lost my childhood. For some reason I wasn’t excited about Christmas.

Youth. Success. Does it have to be one way or the other? hmmm.. I’ve been working too hard, I think I need a long vacation.

Currently listening to: Alanis Morissette - " You Learn"
Currently reading: 7 Tips to a Stress-free day
Currently feeling: jaded

Posted by RazorSharp on January 9, 2006 at 08:37 PM | 7 aroused

March 4, 2005

Summertime

RazorSharp

summertime
and the living is easy
fish are jumping
the cotton is high
oh your daddy's rich
your mama's good looking
i said hush little baby
don't you cry...

summer nanaman! the sun, the surf, the sand...
dont forget your sunblock, your swimsuits, your boardshorts,
your sarongs, your poca shells and your light cologne

pack light

look fabulous!

enjoy

Posted by RazorSharp on March 4, 2005 at 08:19 AM | 5 aroused

February 28, 2005

crave

RazorSharp

i miss the touch of your lips on mine
the warmth of that tight embrace
the wood that grows beneath the tree
the bitter-sweet honey wine

I miss the thinkness of your brows
those eyes that devour me whole
those velvet hands that caress my skin
those words that thrust my soul

hold my hand until i hurt
press your body hard against mine
I want to feel, i want to feel

i would like to feel

Currently feeling: horny

Posted by RazorSharp on February 28, 2005 at 10:32 AM | 4 aroused

November 17, 2004

BANG! you're dead!

RazorSharp

I've always been a martial arts fan, that was before i learned how to shoot.

Posted by RazorSharp on November 17, 2004 at 03:59 AM | 9 aroused

November 11, 2004

Pa-bona!

RazorSharp

isang eksena mula sa THE RING III, heheheh

Rocky, para sayo to PARE! hahah.. im sure!

Posted by RazorSharp on November 11, 2004 at 07:35 AM | 5 aroused

October 27, 2004

que sera sera

RazorSharp

Last holloween i dressed up as a samorai warrior in a blue silk robe.. guess what i'll be this year???

yep! i'll be in my hand made bejewelled crown made of clear swarovski and faux pearls, fine green chiffon floor-length scarf accented with butterflies, skin-tone cropped tee, and Vero Cuoio boots! and i guarantee you, you've never seen a fairy this fabulous before!!

Currently feeling: fabulous

Posted by RazorSharp on October 27, 2004 at 07:14 AM | 11 aroused

October 19, 2004

RazorSharp

and this is me, brilliant in the morning!

Posted by RazorSharp on October 19, 2004 at 07:12 AM | 6 aroused

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